Hello, Heifer! For the past few weeks, I’ve really beaten myself up. I felt paralyzed trying to work on anything and it just recently dawned on me that I’m suffering from crippling imposter syndrome. Every move I made I doubted. I thought of all the ways it could go wrong and how stupid I would look.
I’m also having a weird identity crisis since I quit my job. My job used to define me – back when I used to meet new people, usually the second question they’d ask would be, “and what do you do?” And now I don’t have that easy answer of “project manager.” So that added more shame on my Shame Shit Pile.
But, it looks like I’m coming out on the other side of this funk, so I wanted to share my experience with you while it was fresh! Enjoy the episode!
00:00 A weird, Western intro about how imposter syndrome has been on my mind.
01:50 Thank you so much for the wonderful responses to my bipolar episode <3.
03:43 Life Sabbatical Update
08:06 My imposter syndrome is thriving because of these three things: I quit my job which has unleashed a minor identity crisis, I’m working on a lot of creative projects and feel vulnerable, and lastly, all of this has increased my anxiety and made me feel paralyzed.
09:17 #1 Imposter syndrome over my job. Superhuman imposter syndrome – working really hard because you feel like you have to prove something to others. It me.
15:49 #2 Creative projects causing imposter syndrome. Creating content is very vulnerable. Anyone can have an opinion on a piece, and now that I’ve decided I’d like to make creating content my job, I feel a ton of pressure to succeed.
22:12 #3 Both the identity crisis and fear of failure have accumulated into an ongoing ball of anxiety. Sometimes, it paralyzes me from making any forward movement.
25:18 Final thoughts.
29:04 Western outro lol.